reflections..or my attempt at being reflective :-)

Well this is the start of my new blog, my mediocre life.
After my birthday a few weeks ago i was cracking my skull about all the wonderful things that happened but still i was feeling unfulfilled.
you know the feeling...????... that feeling when you are at a party and everybody is having the best time of their lives but you have the feeling you are on the outside looking in.
It made me think.... i do not want to run around, driving myself crazy, going to the hippest places, coolest hangouts or best eateries, just to fit in or be able to talk along with the cool people.
i just want a nice average life, with nice average things that make me happy.
I would off course love to be a larger-than-life music artist or out-of-this-world dancer,...but i have accepted that at 31 years old, 220 lbs and without an considerable amount of talent in both singing or dancing,...it aint gonna happen!
And to compensate that sometimes difficult realization, i have just decided to write about my mediocre life, maybe it will get a little bit easier to accept than and just be Happy....