being liked.. recognized......acknowledged..??

After watching the final oprah show, i have been thinking a lot about 1 of the life-lesson she discussed: that people need recognition from other people.
Off course, everyone needs to be loved and all kinds of issues stem from not being loved: but i have been questioning myself how far will i go for recognition from friends, work??

It is funny that recognition from my family doesn't come into the calculation. I already feel so at home there and recognized as my own person that i don't need the attention there, because i already get it with being myself.
But at other aspects in my life, i am indeed striving for that recognition: do they like me, do they like what i am saying,etc,etc?
offcourse in a ideal "I-am-so-confident-happy-go-lucky-kinda-person'- world, i would not need that kind of acknowledgement but the truth is, as oprah said, everybody needs it.
So i am trying to apply this to my everyday life, since i do believe also in the other oprah-classic : "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" ; so if i recognize and acknowledge the people around me and the efforts they make for me, i might get it back as well.
Let's hope so .....'love can change the world', right....???

Post-vacation depression!

As always, starting to work again after a sunny semi-relaxing holiday, is just blah!
sitting behind a desk from 9-5, seems a little confining after weeks in the wide open.
But we have no choice, since in this world, you will need to have money to pay for that sunny holiday and all the nice things you want to do in life.

So to help me get out of my post vacation depression here a list of things that make me happy just to remind myself.
1. i am happy that i am able to have 3 weeks vacation, instead of slogging behind a desk without ever having holiday as they do in some countries
2. i am happy it is the 4th of october and it is still 20 degrees out!
3. I am happy that i have a lovely husband who tries to understand me every step of the way
4. i am happy that i am getting a company car in just about 7 weeks
5. i am happy that i have a nice family

Street-style, street-smart??

I am a bit fed up with the street-style blogs and parts from uberstylish websites. As much as i love to discover new trends and love a good peek into others peoples life, i also feel that the natural , wow-look-what-a-super-stylish-person-i-just-found-wandering-the-streets-of-whatever-random-town is a bit gone and it is all too glossy and shiny and sleek and the element of wonder and discovery has gone. Anyone can find super-stylish people at Paris fashion week or New York fashion week, but have they been found in say...Albuquerque, New Mexico or Bordeaux ,France or Zeist, Holland???? So this is my call to all you fashion bloggers and editors out there: Explore the unknown and trek into the wild outskirts of society to find new and exciting things!!!

Mood-breakdown due to Weather

Well this weather is not doing wonders for my mood! July should be about stolen moments in the sun during work-hours and lazy weekends in the park or on the beach!
Not about trying to find my winter sweaters and wearing socks again!

Yesterday i spent my Sunday making friendship bracelets after seeing a post on www.honestlywtf.com( lovely site!!!); but for some reason it seems that i never get it as nice and pretty as it looks on the site!!! In real life my bracelets are a mess of tangled knots... not the nice orderly knotted bracelets as you see on the site... but maybe that is just me,.... not so nice and orderly, but a bit chaotic and all-over-the-place, is that such a bad thing?

What makes me happy...??

I find 'being happy'such an elusive concept... everybody is searching for happiness but what is happy?...
sometime life whizzes by so fast you dont even have time to stop and think what you are happy about.
So i am doing that now on a lazy sunday-afternoon.

- I am happy to be alive
- I am happy to have a loving family
- I am happy to have a loving husband
- I am happy that i am healthy
- I am happy that i have a lovely home with a lovely garden
- I am happy that i have lazy sunday-afternoons
- I am happy that i can travel and see the world

reflections..or my attempt at being reflective :-)

Well this is the start of my new blog, my mediocre life.
After my birthday a few weeks ago i was cracking my skull about all the wonderful things that happened but still i was feeling unfulfilled.
you know the feeling...????... that feeling when you are at a party and everybody is having the best time of their lives but you have the feeling you are on the outside looking in.
It made me think.... i do not want to run around, driving myself crazy, going to the hippest places, coolest hangouts or best eateries, just to fit in or be able to talk along with the cool people.
i just want a nice average life, with nice average things that make me happy.
I would off course love to be a larger-than-life music artist or out-of-this-world dancer,...but i have accepted that at 31 years old, 220 lbs and without an considerable amount of talent in both singing or dancing,...it aint gonna happen!
And to compensate that sometimes difficult realization, i have just decided to write about my mediocre life, maybe it will get a little bit easier to accept than and just be Happy....